I feel so tired.
Sometimes I want to hit the pause button and enjoy absolute peace for a while. Just turn everyone else off and stop time. I need a break.
On several occasions multiple friends have called me when they’re about to kill themself because I’m the only one who they think can talk them out of it and will help them no matter what. So far I’ve been successful. No funerals yet. Despite my obvious compassion and nurturing personality, I can’t seem to find a decent boyfriend. Wtf?
Why do I have an inordinate amount of suicidal...
Seriously? Wtf, man. Not happy about possibly having to drag my ass out to middle-of-nowhere fucking Kansas. I’m so going to bitch slap this boy. He better not fucking die on me. I’m so pissed.
I have a feeling.
Pretty sure there is going to be a big roommate fight soon. Money brings out evil. I am so sick of getting screwed over by assholes who think they’re above paying. So much anger right now.
My roommates are energy hogs. So not environmentally friendly. I’m trying to make a serious effort to improve my life. Not helping.
I don’t like living with people. I don’t like living alone either. Mostly I can’t afford to live alone with the kind of space and environment that I require. I need a sugar daddy… or just someone who wants to give me lots of money and cool stuff.
I don't want to sleep!
I want to do things! Shopping, transplanting, yard work, cleaning, painting, reading, watching tv… pretty much anything but sleeping. I wish it was tomorrow already. I’m not in the waiting mood.
I really want to sleep. I just have this irrational fear of sleeping sometimes. Yet other times I would rather sleep the day away. Tonight is a fearful night. :/
I find it incredibly annoying when someone always has to have the last word in a conversation. It’s so pointless. I think it was left at a good closing point. Why beat a dead horse? … that’s actually a really disgusting phrase. I don’t know how I feel about it anymore. You get the point though. Stop being so damn controlling!
I can't get over some people.
You can owe me $1,000.00, and say you can’t afford to pay me back right now… but you can buy a new video game and brag about it on Facebook. A game that probably costs about $60. Uh huh. Sure you can’t pay me back. Maybe I can’t stop myself from suing your dumb ass and deflating your car tires…
Waking up at 8am to get some great stuff at the farmer’s market and the feed store. I got an air plant. It just hangs in the air. Suspended from a string. No dirt required. !!! I also picked up a purple and green varigated tomato plant. I’m so excited! Also some new lavender soap and lip balm. Pretty earrings and a flower vase too. Teebs got a new bandanny. Now its time for a nap...
I miss somebody...
that I really shouldn’t and don’t like missing…
Fucking SLEEP ugh!!!
I can't sleep.
I want it to be tomorrow already.
These are a few of my favorite things...
a fresh bag of potting soil a veggie burger with fries and cole slaw tomato plants pottery/ceramics Jalapenos cooking implements crisp, cool lettuce fresh ice melted cheese organic, free-range brown eggs chickens (not for eating, they’re my friends!) puppy hugs freshly mowed grass the smell of rain lit candles mechanical pencils bowls coffee mugs iced coffee fresh whipped...
Curious about beekeeping.
… because I need more things to occupy my time and my mind.
Going to a friends house
Normal people: What a lovely home you have
Me: Whats your wifi password?
^Pretty much every single person that comes in my house. Even if they're just here for a party. We have the password written on the whiteboard calendar. We got tired of trying to remember it.
This week has been so incredibly sucky.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Some people need a very strong dose of Karma.
I know one that needs to have so much that he can’t take any more and just dies. Actually, a few someones like that. Mainly just the one though. He should be hit by a bus.
I need to weed eat the lawn.
I’m not really looking forward to it though. I know that I’m going to have to mow the lawn afterwards. No one else will… What’s the point of having roommates? All they do is pay their share of bills later (if at all), bring annoying people over, come home at rude hours, and make messes. Why do I bother?
I don't know why I bother with people anymore.
I really don’t.
ladyalexandria: Those ideas that seem like good ideas, but are bad ideas. All the time. :/